Rider, dude... are you stuck in the drum chair doing the rehearsal sessions for Britney Spears' upcoming VMA awards show comeback performance?
Thank goodness you're a drummer!
To be honest, I think a gig playin for the dreaded Britney would be looked at as a serious kick in the ass! I d do it in a heartbeat!( and I CANNOT stand that scene)
So I have been chillin out, by da beach, and on the river(in my cheesy rubber boat, its still fun tho) and really took a step back from my current predicament, and when I look at my past life, in drumming, and look to the future of what 'may'' happen with the drums and all... I ve been at a standstill. I m sure so many of us here have hit that "wall" you speak of, but the drums have typically been that "ladder" per se. And right now, my ladder is missing a few rungs...
I have seem to have lost that "joy" I was used to getting from just sitting down, jammin out, and losing myself in the whole process of just playing! I miss it, and as I would in the past, just force myself to sit down, play, and reap the benefits and walk away content n happy, lately its been seeming like its been becoming an "escape" if you will...But as you would expect an escape to provide just that, its turned to more of a "task". And nobody likes to perform a "task" as I described it. WTF????
For instance, I m currently in the process of joining a well-established(and paid) band. Now 3 years ago this would ve been a blessing! But right now it just kinda seems like "Ahhh, whatever, If it happens it happens..." I hate this feeling! This just aint me! Its like I m in a deep room with no way out, except a broken "ladder".
I guess I m not really expecting any answer, but just puttin my thoughts out there....does suck though. I guess I ll spend more time on my "boat" and listening to Porcupine Tree, Gavin Harrison gives me that "warm,fuzzy feeling" and I like that....