rogue_drummer
Gold Member
I'm over this now, but man yesterday I was reeling. My third Sunday to play in our church's praise and worship band. The pastor found out I played drums and rather begged me, so I said I would since I'm between bands right now.
Yesterday was the third Sunday we've not held a weekday practice. We haven't since I've been "in the band", so to speak. We've only rehearsed for 1 hour before the service the three or four songs we've had to play since the band leader has been busy with her other church functions. And as usual no music, chord charts for me. I've had to google the lyrics and cut and paste into MS Word.
So yesterday we practice our usual 1 hour before the service the three new songs for us. I was comfortble since I had listened to them a few days before and what I did seemed to fit into place.
When it comes time for the worship service and us to play, I sucked. Big time. Or so I thought I did. I lost the beat a few measures of a song when it bridged, then had to gradually come in when I felt the beat, then I ended a fill early, and on and on. Sorta crappy playing.
By the fourth song I was so po'd by my playing I wanted to quit. I got back to my seat and whispered in my wife's ear that I sucked and she replied it sounded ok to her, no rushing or dragging or clear mistakes, and certainly no "lost beat". Then on the way home she playfully chided me on "being my own worst critic". I think what I'm most embarrassed about is I'm the second oldest one in this band (I turn 50 in July), and they came after me to play. So I felt I let them down, let the congregation down, etc.
I'm finding I love drumming, but it don't always love me back....
Yesterday was the third Sunday we've not held a weekday practice. We haven't since I've been "in the band", so to speak. We've only rehearsed for 1 hour before the service the three or four songs we've had to play since the band leader has been busy with her other church functions. And as usual no music, chord charts for me. I've had to google the lyrics and cut and paste into MS Word.
So yesterday we practice our usual 1 hour before the service the three new songs for us. I was comfortble since I had listened to them a few days before and what I did seemed to fit into place.
When it comes time for the worship service and us to play, I sucked. Big time. Or so I thought I did. I lost the beat a few measures of a song when it bridged, then had to gradually come in when I felt the beat, then I ended a fill early, and on and on. Sorta crappy playing.
By the fourth song I was so po'd by my playing I wanted to quit. I got back to my seat and whispered in my wife's ear that I sucked and she replied it sounded ok to her, no rushing or dragging or clear mistakes, and certainly no "lost beat". Then on the way home she playfully chided me on "being my own worst critic". I think what I'm most embarrassed about is I'm the second oldest one in this band (I turn 50 in July), and they came after me to play. So I felt I let them down, let the congregation down, etc.
I'm finding I love drumming, but it don't always love me back....