vyacheslav
Senior Member
Hello,
Music has always been the number one thing in my life. Even though I work a "real" job, music and my drumming was always the best part of my life, the best part of who I am, and has been my lifelong passion. I'll be 47 next month, and I have been playing since before I could walk (literally!). I'm the biggest gear/drum nerd you could imagine, and I love everything about drums, drumming and playing music. I am in several bands and do a lot of freelance jazz gigging as well. I also teach private drum lesson one night a week to six students. I was a Jazz Studies major at The University Of North Texas. Music has always been a part of me and I will never have anything in my life that makes me feel quite like music/drums does. I know that all of you here can relate.
Lately though, I just haven't been enjoying it. I'm not having any fun playing anymore. Rehearsals, lessons and even most gigs feel too much like a chore now. Like something I HAVE to do instead of want to do. It's not fun anymore. I'm not geeked out or excited about new gear or even any of my own gear, which has never happened before. I have felt this way for the last couple of months. Quite honestly, it really scares me, because I've never felt like this in my entire life, and I never thought I would. I always told myself the day it stopped being fun is the day I would stop doing it. Again, I never thought that day would come, but I'm afraid it might be here. I'm not ready to stop yet, but I feel like I want to, even for just a little while. I literally have no idea what has brought about this change of feelings for me. I am completely drug and alcohol free, and all other aspects of my life seem perfectly fine. Also, I am not dissatisfied with my playing. Obviously, many of us feel we could/should be better, but overall I am happy with my playing, and I think I'm playing better than I ever have in my life. It is all very strange.
Has anyone else here felt similarly? What advice would you give? I'm sure (at least in the Good Lord's name I am hoping so) that this is just temporary, and that I'll get my "mojo" back soon. I very much want to work through this, but at times, I have thought about stepping away from my music altogether until I find my mojo again, although it breaks my heart to even think that way.
I love music too much and I've worked too hard to get where I am. I do not, at all, want to give up on anything, but also don't want to do something I love and cherish as much as my drumming/music with no passion either. The music deserves every ounce of passion that all of us have.
If anyone has any advice to help me navigate this bumpy road, I will be eternally grateful.
Thanks,
V
Music has always been the number one thing in my life. Even though I work a "real" job, music and my drumming was always the best part of my life, the best part of who I am, and has been my lifelong passion. I'll be 47 next month, and I have been playing since before I could walk (literally!). I'm the biggest gear/drum nerd you could imagine, and I love everything about drums, drumming and playing music. I am in several bands and do a lot of freelance jazz gigging as well. I also teach private drum lesson one night a week to six students. I was a Jazz Studies major at The University Of North Texas. Music has always been a part of me and I will never have anything in my life that makes me feel quite like music/drums does. I know that all of you here can relate.
Lately though, I just haven't been enjoying it. I'm not having any fun playing anymore. Rehearsals, lessons and even most gigs feel too much like a chore now. Like something I HAVE to do instead of want to do. It's not fun anymore. I'm not geeked out or excited about new gear or even any of my own gear, which has never happened before. I have felt this way for the last couple of months. Quite honestly, it really scares me, because I've never felt like this in my entire life, and I never thought I would. I always told myself the day it stopped being fun is the day I would stop doing it. Again, I never thought that day would come, but I'm afraid it might be here. I'm not ready to stop yet, but I feel like I want to, even for just a little while. I literally have no idea what has brought about this change of feelings for me. I am completely drug and alcohol free, and all other aspects of my life seem perfectly fine. Also, I am not dissatisfied with my playing. Obviously, many of us feel we could/should be better, but overall I am happy with my playing, and I think I'm playing better than I ever have in my life. It is all very strange.
Has anyone else here felt similarly? What advice would you give? I'm sure (at least in the Good Lord's name I am hoping so) that this is just temporary, and that I'll get my "mojo" back soon. I very much want to work through this, but at times, I have thought about stepping away from my music altogether until I find my mojo again, although it breaks my heart to even think that way.
I love music too much and I've worked too hard to get where I am. I do not, at all, want to give up on anything, but also don't want to do something I love and cherish as much as my drumming/music with no passion either. The music deserves every ounce of passion that all of us have.
If anyone has any advice to help me navigate this bumpy road, I will be eternally grateful.
Thanks,
V
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