No, mine are much worse. I'd be thrilled if they were just on par. But yea, no.
Sure, the handful of songs I wrote are more personal to me. But they really do suck in relation to the big picture. As far as holding them in the same regard as other songs, if I felt my songs were on par, (which they're not) that's about the best I could hope for. In music there is no better or worse, just different.
I am thankful for all the people who suffer to get their original music out there.
I feel lucky just being able to play at a passable level. I just don't have what it takes to be a full time musician in today's scene. I would hate to go to gigs wearing headphones and reading music while following a click. I really don't think I could get into that special zone I chase doing that. I'd rather do electrical work. As it is now, I am hired for my particular brand of drumming, not how good I can follow a click or read a chart. That's my ideal scenario. I satisfy pretty easily though and am not driven like most other people.
I just want the fun part lol. I work hard enough during the day. At night I want to release and get to that zone I love, not be a slave to a robotic ticking. That's the day I'm out of there. Not talking about anything in the studio. I'm talking live performance, the entire reason I devote the time I do to drums.
I really detest sequences and backing tracks when I see a live band. It's a huge turn off for me. It's like doing a live YT cover, no thanks. I want real music the old fashioned way, played by players who can really extract emotion from their instrument.