BonzotheDog
Junior Member
Hey guys,
I'm not new to this forum, but i have just registered because I am in a bit of pickle and a lot of you guys are sure to understand, and will help me to understand my issue.
I've been drumming for about 8 years now; started off playing along to songs and air drumming to Bonham and Grohl. I always had this vision of myself on stage wowing the crowds with my passion and flare, and the thought of it made me feel alive, and eventually ended up with this drummer persona before i had even touched a stage, but i was progressing fast and am a quick learner.
Around about a year and a half ago I had the opportunity to jam on stage and I jumped at it, and admittedly I was a little nervous but eventually I was jamming in front of 100+ and i felt and played awesome - made lots of friends.
Then I started joining bands, and I relished at the chance to show them what i was made of, and every band I jumped to told me that I was the best drummer they had ever played with, but lately I've become too flakey and picky with which people(depending on their style and skill) I'll play with.
The point is I always wanted to gig properly, and when i actually did start to late last year, I was a nervous wreck and considered quitting, and after quite a few, i still can be and i just don't know why - I'm quite outgoinh, though, i can be fairly pessimistic.
I played a gig 2 nights ago playing easy covers that everyone knows in front uni students. Easy enough, but as soon ad i got on stage, i could feel my head suddenly swelling and feeling extremely hot. Plus every song was like i was playing on the edge of a cliff, and one slip would ruin me. I also felt really aware of how I might have been percieved, as if i may have looked bored or robotic due to my fear of not perfo4ming to my best.
I need help with this guys, i just want to let loose and be the drummer i was fuckin born to be!
I'm not new to this forum, but i have just registered because I am in a bit of pickle and a lot of you guys are sure to understand, and will help me to understand my issue.
I've been drumming for about 8 years now; started off playing along to songs and air drumming to Bonham and Grohl. I always had this vision of myself on stage wowing the crowds with my passion and flare, and the thought of it made me feel alive, and eventually ended up with this drummer persona before i had even touched a stage, but i was progressing fast and am a quick learner.
Around about a year and a half ago I had the opportunity to jam on stage and I jumped at it, and admittedly I was a little nervous but eventually I was jamming in front of 100+ and i felt and played awesome - made lots of friends.
Then I started joining bands, and I relished at the chance to show them what i was made of, and every band I jumped to told me that I was the best drummer they had ever played with, but lately I've become too flakey and picky with which people(depending on their style and skill) I'll play with.
The point is I always wanted to gig properly, and when i actually did start to late last year, I was a nervous wreck and considered quitting, and after quite a few, i still can be and i just don't know why - I'm quite outgoinh, though, i can be fairly pessimistic.
I played a gig 2 nights ago playing easy covers that everyone knows in front uni students. Easy enough, but as soon ad i got on stage, i could feel my head suddenly swelling and feeling extremely hot. Plus every song was like i was playing on the edge of a cliff, and one slip would ruin me. I also felt really aware of how I might have been percieved, as if i may have looked bored or robotic due to my fear of not perfo4ming to my best.
I need help with this guys, i just want to let loose and be the drummer i was fuckin born to be!
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