Really it truly all comes down to something all about your personal attitude and the learning process to me. We can limit what we can do based on many external factors for sure as we get older. I'm no stranger to personal sacrificies to keep doing what I do above other things many others feel are far more important in life to grab onto, its about making choices. When I saw Roy Haynes right after his 80th birthday this point came home in spades in the most humble of ways believe me. We are only limited by the boundaries we self impose on ourselves i've learned in life and the realistic choices we need to make to achieve our personal goals. Everyones goals are very different in that regard without casting judgement on wanting to be a pro or not.
I was the young guy in my latest percussion ensemble project for Vancouver 2010 for the Olympics combined with Canadian and French players and during a casual meeting with the leader yesterday I stated clearly to him what an incredible enriching learning experience it was for me to be kicked into a different direction out of my usual acoustic jazz based comfort zone. I told him this experience opened up news doors for the "old guy" musically speaking I can add into my overall musical output into any further situations as a professional player I come across down the road.
Being too comforable in life can lead quickly to growing moss..... you have to be able to push yourself and continue to take chances from what you feel most comforable doing if you want to stay "young at heart" and learn and push yourself all the time to learn even more most importantly.
The creative growing and learning process never stops based on your ATTITUDE and realistic hard choices you have to make towards it.........
Relationships, kids, money and the wish for security are huge in this context. The choices you speak of are almost inevitably based on that.
One thing I came to realise is that having talent isn't enough. What made me realise that was, over the years, as my bands failed to make a mark despite have a fair amount of talent in the ranks, bands with
more talent than we had overtook us. That's the thing - there's a helluva lot of talented people out there. So even if you are a journeywo/man and work your brains out it's not easy to keep up if the really talented ones have a good work ethic.
The arts isn't like accountancy or law (haha - thank goodness), where people can go into it in a relatively perfunctory manner and make a living. The joy associated with the arts attracts so many people that the level of competition is much higher than in most professions. Science is another field where there's far more people wanting to do it than there are opportunities available. I've come across a few administrators with a background in anthropology. Actors serve a lot of food. I've seen the office cleaned by a painter and a science buff. Their passions were relegated to the sidelines.
That's because almost no one grows up hankering to one day be
a human resources consultant. That's what happens after your artistic dreams go kaput ... or at least are having a hiatus or being rejigged
It finally struck me - with enough force to change my priorities - that the goodies I had to offer weren't of high enough quality or commercial enough to compete successfully in this hothouse market. I was in my late 20s at the time and the roaring success of INXS was the last straw. They were younger than us and started out around the traps later than we did - yet they had done fabulously and we were still bottom feeding.
I decided to get real about the fact that groups coming up were well ahead of us in terms of quality; there was a good reason why they succeeded and we didn't. I would have rather seen them play than us too - they were more dynamic, clean, cohesive and solid. We had some nice musical goodies IMO, but not enough to coax people to part with copious amounts of their hard-earned to hear them.
I had a defacto relationship going on at the time and I was sick of doing crap work to make ends meet. Now I'm in human resources. 'effin tragic, really - lol. Good money, though, and now I don't worry about being too uncommercial. They're the perks.
If I had the chance being a pro muso, despite its pitfalls, it would have been a more enjoyable path for me. No sour grapes here - it is what it is. Still, settling for second best ain't the end of the world for me - it still beats 10th best or 100th best. Thing is, some people MUST play to keep body and soul together ... music is the only way they truly express themselves. I love music a great deal but I can express myself better in words and cartoons than I can with drums, so it's different. I don't NEED it.
So it's probably for the best that people like me get out of the way for those whose emotional wellbeing is intrinsically tied to their music. I play with passion but it's the people who
absolutely pour their heart and soul into their performances who truly enchant audiences. My role now is to play to see them and lap it up