Andy
Honorary Member
I'm in one of those moods today. I've been reviewing where I am right now, & I find both good & bad. Almost to the day, I've been back at playing for 3 years after a 20+ year break. Virtually no practice, just thrown myself back into gigging.
I'm now at the stage where I can hold a gig together with some credibility, yet I'm far from satisfied with my playing. I've fallen into the age old trap of concentrating on what I can do, rather than what I can't do. Just about every skill needed to consistently nail a performance is missing, & I need to get my act together. From my previous playing, I know there's a lot more to offer, but I've had many challenges in my life, some of them hanging onto life itself, so I'm not sure if I have enough challenge capacity left in the batteries. There is no sense of achievement without challenge, so if you want one, it doesn't come without the other.
Then there's the flip side to this. I really enjoy what I'm doing. My band is going from strength to strength, I have great band mates, we pull a good audience & have no issues getting gigs (we've got 7 festivals/rallies booked for the summer season already ) If I'm looking for achievement, there it is, right there.
So do I take the easy route or the hard route? Is the easy route actually the hard route in the long run, in so much as I'll continue to manage my inner frustration. Maybe some of this will resonate with others here, I'm not sure, but I just thought I'd open the door.
Andy.
I'm now at the stage where I can hold a gig together with some credibility, yet I'm far from satisfied with my playing. I've fallen into the age old trap of concentrating on what I can do, rather than what I can't do. Just about every skill needed to consistently nail a performance is missing, & I need to get my act together. From my previous playing, I know there's a lot more to offer, but I've had many challenges in my life, some of them hanging onto life itself, so I'm not sure if I have enough challenge capacity left in the batteries. There is no sense of achievement without challenge, so if you want one, it doesn't come without the other.
Then there's the flip side to this. I really enjoy what I'm doing. My band is going from strength to strength, I have great band mates, we pull a good audience & have no issues getting gigs (we've got 7 festivals/rallies booked for the summer season already ) If I'm looking for achievement, there it is, right there.
So do I take the easy route or the hard route? Is the easy route actually the hard route in the long run, in so much as I'll continue to manage my inner frustration. Maybe some of this will resonate with others here, I'm not sure, but I just thought I'd open the door.
Andy.
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