Wow...you really did have a bad year.The year I lost my son to a car accident,I felt like things couldn't get any worse,but they did.So I still got up every day,did what I had to do,and eventually,life went on.
It took time.Sometimes I felt like "how am I doing this'? I can't live another day this way....but I did.I'm glad I was able to hang on,and found solice in the little things,like fishing,my boy scout troop,and a few close friends.There's no greater reward for me,than helping children.That got me through.
Just hand in there,The universe abhores a vacume,another door will open up.
Steve B