Re: Dealing with inferiority complex...
WADR, if you want a bleeding heart answer, you won't get one from me. Good for you that you realized you aren't happy with your past choices. Past is gone. Start doing what you think you should have been doing today and don't squander your precious time lamenting the past, instead use your past mistakes as a guideline on what not to do today, to improve your present frame of mind. You are thinking toxically. Stop it!
You can only compare yourself to yourself. Really. Forget other drummers skill level, they're just a source of frustration for you anyway. Get to work on yourself, shed your past and don't look back. There's plenty of time.