Re: Having a little problem....uh oh
I think this situation calls for expert advice. I deal with depression, but I'm glad to say that mine is only very light, and I've never had suicidal thoughts... drumming seems to help a lot of time for me (although sometimes it just makes things worse, because every once in a while I'll feel I suck at drumming too and then I just get more discouraged). But I don't know about your case, it seems a bit more extreme. You need to talk to someone who knows about these things in depth and how to solve them, and the internet isn't the right place to look for one of those poeple I'm afraid to say.
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