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Old 02-18-2014, 07:45 AM
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Default Re: Started smoking again!!!

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Originally Posted by Dutch View Post
Drumkat,

You need an incentive to change (other than health reasons). So when I quit 3 years ago, I calculated my average monthly spent on tobacco. Which, in Australia, is quite a lot.. Then I opened a separate bank account and have been transferring the amount that I saved by not smoking into the new account every month. That's my drum fund. So whenever I feel the urge, or wonder why I gave up, I look at my drums. That's why.

Dutch
Hey Dutch,

I really really need to quit hey

I am a Registered Nurse in Intensive Care

I see end stage COPD in patients

They end up in a bad bad way....yet I still freakin' smoke

It is nowhere near the amount I used to smoke but still...

God I am such a total idiot

I will get myself in the right headspace and try again ASAP

I can remember recently one patient who hung himself

He was still alive but was brain dead

I remember having to turn off life support with his 14yr old daughter standing next to me

Her daughter cried in my arms for about an hr

My uniform was soaked in her tears

That was one trigger that got me back on the ciggies

That situation affected me deeply

I know it is NO excuse, but at the time it seemed the one way to get through it all
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