Re: I'll never try that again.
I feel for you!
What I've noticed is that whenever something is committed to video (or audio), it has a more lasting impact than something that happens live. By this I mean that is susceptible to being analysed, frame by frame, far more than is the case if it were not being immortalised forever.
I bet if somebody listened to you playing live, they'd think pretty much what you think. I doubt if you're way way out.
Recordings are very cruel, they throw everything into sharp relief with no softening. Don't be too hard on yourself!
Thinly veiled stiletto
Ladies & gentlemen, I've suffered for my art. Now it's your turn (Neil Innes)