Re: Have I sold out?
You have a decent job most likely with some form of benefits which allows you to pursue drumming on your terms. You win!
I was in the same boat back in the 1980's when I viewed playing as an "all or none" kind of thing. Took me a long while to get through / over that and have long since moved on to a career so far outside of music it's not funny.
I love what I do and make good money at it. Able to support a home and family not to mention my drumming passion.
Lastly, having a non-musical career allows me to be the decider on what I do and do not want to play. The notion of playing music I can't stand listening to or playing just to earn a buck makes me want to sell everything I have and never play again.
"I found that to really make money, you had to give up music. So I gave up money" - Mel Lewis